LACKING MOTIVATION TO PLAY

i was debating whether or not to make this nothing post, but since i'm not sure i will be playing the next few days either i thought i would. i haven't played since friday night and just can't be bothered to play. recently i've changed my idea of what i want to do from- being one of the best online players (regardless of where i currently am it is just my ambition) to- try and make a slow profit (grinding as such), just for the time being. the idea of making £2k/£3k a day though (if i run ok) does not appeal to me at all. it is perhaps the least motivated i've been to play since i started playing poker so i'm not sure i will ever be a grinder. i'm still waiting for neteller to sort out so i can deposit on party poker because there's often 3 10 seater tables ($25/$50 level) there which i do actually fancy. maybe a few days until i can get money on there and don't know that i'll play even then. the sunday million this week is $1050 though so perhaps i'll play that.

outside of poker i've ordered my guitar, a gibson flying-V model for anyone who knows what that is, i decided not to get a new amp. i'm playing more regular sport now (football, tennis and table-tennis weekly and a little bit of snooker/pool) which is very important to me.

i seem to have lost my hit counter and i have zero idea how, if anyone knows how i can get it back i'd love to know.